To all of you, may I say a big thank you for all your comments and sound advice, I cant tell you how much it means to me..I said to a friend, that I sat a long time in front of my computer, just looking at the keys, before I plucked up the courage to open myself up to my peers with my 'silly' problem. I believed no one would care, or indeed, would believe it a joke, so I had already, if you like, in my own head written the forum answers I would get…how wrong I was!!
I have found the last 24 hours very cathartic. I have received many messages via email and of course via here from some of the best in the business and people I hold in high esteem.
Dear Fuzz, please call me Steve…all my friends do, and I deem you very much a friend.
Alan, as expected from someone so astute (word checker changed astute to hirsute, thank God I spotted that one!!!) I am a Romantic, I think all us actors are if we are honest, but I do feel flawed not being 'the full package'. I thank you so much for your comment. I sense you know exactly where I am and the problem I have to come to terms with. PS…How did you know I had a 'wart' on my chest..spooky…hehe.
Mark, great comment again..you mentioned "you ever tried to cry 25 times in a row" that for me would be like Olympic Gold…let me do it once first and see where it goes from there, Cheers Mark.
I'm with you Claire, pretend crying, or as my mum would say crocodile tears is a poor substitute and you are so right Christine about the soaps at the moment real is real, false is obvious, and our audiences deserve better. (that's me off Eastenders casting list for a while..lol)
Splat, Alan mentioned rightly about the Brain being a wonderful machine, and so it is, and I need to master that machine to be the actor I want to be, just like when I passed my driving test some 400 years ago!!! I needed a professional Instructor…and I fully agree with you I need one again to guide me along a path, even Indiana Jones would think twice about. Many thanks, Splat
Regards Steve
PS...just had to say, to my friend who kindly sent an email believing I was near a nervous breakdown!! that I am no way near Christopher Walken 'Nick' from The Deer Hunter just at the moment, but, thanks for the email none the less...Steve