Mm pencils. Had a few myself, been as far as recieveing the filming dates and flight details , only for everything to change and change again , until I've even forgotten what I was casting for in the first place.
The trouble is , as much as its annoying ,frustrating etc etc etc , who here wouldn't cross hot coals to get a job they would enjoy, rather than keep plodding on in the jobs which earn regular or irregular money in the so called real world.
I held off confirming I could do a month of weekend work for a mate of mine, just in case the job I was pencilled in for actually came off.
It's this hope of the job which could open doors , that keeps us waiting and hanging on . It's this hope of a tiny springboard to launch us into a world of creative work , that tests relationships , work and personnal .
It's this hope of justifying to ourselves and everybody else , just why we are still here chasing castings.
I am learning , albeit very slowly , to accept that I have to let all the disappointment wash over me. Because if I don't , then I take the negative attitude , which in the past has probably hindered me on my journey & ilet it affect all my future decisions.
So forget the bad situations from the past ,and start your year right now .
My new start kicked off on the 10th of feb , which was my birthday. The break up of a relationship just beforehand and the fall out from it made me take a long hard look at my life. I realised then , I either let the negative stuff fashion the way I approach everything , or I get out there and give myself the chance I deserve.
That's about as deep and meaningful as I get .
A pencil , it's something you take with a pinch of salt. But don't let it rule your life, because there's plenty more people and projects out there with your name on them.